It hasn't even been a year since I started this blog, and I've already written up a bunch of stuff. Most of it can probably just be referred to as waffle, or 'rabbiting-on', but I've found it useful and cathartic. I'm proud of myself and the adjustments I've made this year.
I've gone from a sometimes attender, to an every-classer, and I've seen the results that suggest my time has been well spent.
I began WC under one teacher, and now I learn under another. I've come to understand that sometimes one teacher isn't always the best option, and I've also come to respect the approach of questioning what you're being told and testing it, rather than just accepting it.
When I first started WC I knew nothing of it. I hadn't even heard of it before, and now I know enough to know that I'm not too much concerned with the folk-law surrounding WC. Whether the origin story is true, embellished, or just made up...I care not. It provides a frame for WC's history, however WC's longevity is based purely in its evolving forward.
As such the process by which students are taught needs also to change.
As a child in school we're taught to believe the teacher and trust that something is so-and-so because.
As a high school student we're taught that these are the reasons that something is so-and-so.
However it's in the tertiary education system that I've seen the implication that the answer isn't also so, and that one needs to delve deeper to understand the 'why'.
It is my experience that modern application based WC is at this stage.
I told myself I wanted to learn for self-protection.
During the incident that prompted me to learn some self defense I remember wondering, "Why isn't anyone helping?". And it was a long time before I realised that I'm the only one there to help me.
Take from this what you will. Physically I'm the only one that will ever be with me every moment of my life, so I'm the only one that will always be there.
As such I needed to give myself more consideration and more support.
To do this I needed to change things about myself, or at least how I've operated.
It's a work in progress, and I've got many more changes to make to support my decision to again make WC a priority in my life.
The first step was to give it the time it requires.
We have only two classes a week at this point, so my requirements needed to align with this and concerted effort was required during those classes. I took the lead in arranging additional training outside class, during private time.
Throughout the day I contemplate aspects of things I'm working on in class. Typically this revolves around constant, but not over-zealous, forward energy. This leads into the continual work I'm doing with my bong sao. Which has lead me into better monitoring of controlling the inside line...which again brings me back to forward energy. I think of it as a moderate forward-bias.
Whereas I once wanted to rush through the forms and get to biu jee, mook yan jong, the knives and the pole...I now realise that was more about collecting the forms and saying I 'knew' them. This would prop up my self esteem and give me something to show off. "Look at this lovely new badge, see how it glimmers with knowledge?"
This year I've been happily working through SNT and CK without too much concern about what I was missing out on.
Perhaps this is because I'm now concentrating on purpose and execution though understanding what I'm being taught. Everything I try is associated with the question, "Why?", it then gets run through the Simple-Direct-Efficient filter.
Now I understand the forms are an intense tool-kit and not necessarily a demonstration of execution. ie - we will never use a double jaam sao, such as is found in the first section of CK.
If my motivation had previously been purely Protection-oriented, I'd like to believe that I would've seen through the BS of that olde-school quickly and moved on. I now realise I was there to repair how I looked at myself, and thus I built my structure on a foundation of whimsy and self-aggrandizement.
A paradigm shift was required of me and it took a long time to get there. More so it is required of any individual looking to learn a new skill.
A re-occurring premise amongst n00bs is intermittent attendance to classes and a disappointment at the lack of progress. It could be argued that this lack of progress could be attributed to poor leadership, or poor teaching. However I know this to not always be the case, and is more reasonable to understand that individuals accrue their own level of importance to certain things, which eventuates that WC practice is less important and thus takes up less of their time every day.
The more I come to understand WC, the more I understand that you, I, and we, need to apply more personal time to it's practice. As a skill-set it needs to be exercised, used and maintained.
Attending lessons as you can is fine if your only looking to socialise and seemingly build your self-esteem, however to make forward progress you need to contemplate the skills you're learning.
Give the skills time to embed through regular attendance and contemplation.
It seems like a fairly obvious concept, and yet I see folk come and go without giving the process enough time. It seems like kung fu in NZ still has expectation hanging over its head where if you kowtow for a week you'll learn kung fu in three weeks and you can move on with your life. It isn't like that at all I'm afraid.
All training in Martial Skill takes time and concentration. There's a large quantity of information you have to absorb, often about making your body operate in a fashion it's not used to.
I remember my mother telling me once, "Nothing easy was ever worthwhile", and at the time I didn't fully understand. I believe I have an inkling now. It's just a simple way of telling me that the more time I give to a thing, the more precious it becomes. owever the more time I give to something difficult, the more rewarding will be the outcome.
WC has proven this to me.
I've processed more in this last year than I had in the first 5 years at my previous school.
WC has been the most difficult and influential undertaking I've encountered in my life. It's also been the most rewarding.
I no longer 'play' at learning WC, I learn while playing WC.
WC is a wonder to me. What is it to you?
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